I was worried about being the primary caregiver. Do I have the ability to take care of Charlene? Then I questioned why Charlene was born this way. We don’t know God’s will. But God definitely has his reasons.
One thing we are certain is that if Charlene has been born normal, we could be filing for divorce or I could be in depression now. Even before Charlene was born, we have disagreements over grandparents’ intervention. I keep thinking that I would not have a say and control over my own child (his mum was so confident of taking care of Charlene herself and was unhappy with us wanting to hire confinement lady and would not hear of me taking No-Pay Leave and his dad on the other hand would sure be inculcating Buddhist values and teachings and chanting while carrying the baby). Dez tried several times to convince me that we have the control and was feeling terrible cos he was stuck in between.
But with the birth of Charlene and her condition, Dez received God’s grace and peace in his despair (refer to 29 Oct post) and accepted Christ into his life. This was important as Christ is now in control of our lives, our marriage and our family. And the timing was precise cos the next day, my side of the family ordered him to follow the medium’s instructions. If Dez was still a pre-believer, he would be tempted to follow the medium’s instructions.
Also, the timing of Ah Sang’s visit (refer to 4 Nov post) was just nice. We were feeling despaired and hopeless after the doctors’ conference and Ah Sang’s testimonial gave us support to our faith.
The timing of all the events (leading to Dez’s conversion, our never-give-up on Charlene, to Charlene’s slow but steady recovery, to the defying of doctors’ expectations) are immaculate. Everything was just right and everything was necessary for things to happen.
This realization of all the events made us understand that everything is according to God’s plan. The sequence of events was uncanningly scriptlike; who but the Lord could plan this for us?
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