It was the best decision ever

It was the best decision ever to be a stay at-home mum to take care of Charlene.

Recently at work, I have been teaching about how rational human beings make decisions by weighing benefits and costs.

4 years ago, I made the decision to take no-pay leave to care for Charlene. My mum, my aunts and my ex-colleagues could not comprehend my actions. To them, I am irrational and have not made the right decision. Because I gave up on my job (and thus my salary) to take care of a special child (who in their opinion do not have a future). They think that the most obvious solution is to hire a maid to care for Charlene so that we do not have to grapple with finances and I do not have to be burdened with caring for Charlene.

Indeed, it was tough caring for Charlene. But the benefits cannot be easily measured in monetary value. The joy of seeing Charlene achieve every little thing; smile, kick, hold her head etc etc.... and also the things she has taught me are invaluable.

Sometimes, when I don't know whether what I am doing makes any difference to this world now, I miss Charlene so badly.

I know I have made a difference to her life and she has made a difference to my life and many other people's lives!

I am so glad that I made the best decision ever. To have cared for Charlene for that 3.5 years was something I have never regretted. I wish I could still have her but as much as I miss her, I know that my little angel Charlene is happily with Jesus in heaven.